Sunday, April 26
The first step
One of my biggest fears is writing a novel, because it is the one thing I want to do most in life. The very idea of spending hours, months, years--time that doesn't register--immersing myself in the sweet pleasure of putting to paper words that demand to tumble forth -- furiously producing page after page in the darkest hours, or a quick, delighted scrawl on the back of a bill in the train -- and then re-reading it and realizing it is almost all shit -- the very idea is crippling.
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Well, your shit is better than my shit. 8D
If you take no risks, you'll only recieve the most mundane rewards.
If you want a numbing, but safe, career in corporate comms, you know exactly what to do.
You may not realize, but I suffer the same fears. When I return to my caffeine and trance fuelled abstractions, I always see the flaws and quirks rather than the original beauty. But, all work can be revisited and refreshed. And there is such a thing as good enough.
I believe in you, and I wish you did too.
i guess all writers realize at some point that what they wrote before was crap. some of them go on to keep realizing it, every now and then. but they all get better, with practice, and with realizing that what they've written is crap.
like, my first novel was utter crap. my second was derivative crap. the third was unfinished crap. the fourth is unfinished crap. my other writing has been crap in the past and even now i'm finding that quite a lot of it here and there is crap too. i write anyway.
why write in the first place? because there's something in us that wants to. so why not?
Do not let what you are afraid of carry you away from what you love to do.
I WANT A COPY OF YOUR FIRST NOVEL once it's done!
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